I ran into one of my next-door neighbors today for the first time. I could swear her curious look said, "There's that girl who plays Creep by Radiohead just a little excessively."
Alright, I'm probably making that up in my head, but her look certainly didn't say, "There's that girl who has all that fantastic sex with her husband all the time" either. I'm having issues with my 40s.
I know I'm only 2 years in, but I can't get a grasp. I feel unsure, unsettled, frustrated. My 40s feel a hell of a lot like my 20s, truth be told. And all I can think about that is, damn I hope my 50s feel like my 30s, 'cause my 30s were pretty awesome until I got laid off.
In the meantime, I keep putting one foot in front of the other, trying to hit my stride.
And then I made a playlist. Five songs that scream my 40s to me, 2 years in.
Soul's On Fire - Big Sky
Creep - Radiohead
The Fear - Lily Allen
Pork and Beans - Weezer
I Am Not A Robot - Marina & the Diamonds
It maybe that I'm going for 40 songs about 40 before I'm done, 'cause I've already added Sail by AWOLNATION and I Don't Want To Be Alone by Billy Joel (from the greatest Billy Joel album EVER, Glass Houses - If you don't own it, go buy it now).
Got any more for me? I can't figure my 40s out for the life of me, but I can listen, and I can be, and here I am.