I got my first tattoo for my 27th birthday, and it is a dragonfly. Also, my first totem animal. A simple enough totem, my dragonflies took me to film school and all the way across the country to Los Angeles. I wrote a post about discovering my dragonflies here: I've seen a dragon fly.
For me, dragonflies are about growing into your true colors. Transformation. Color and light.
I got my second tattoo for my 39th birthday, and it is a bunny rabbit. I can't actually remember when I discovered my affinity for the rabbit totem, but it's a more complex relationship and clearly has to do with my ever developing relationship with Los Angeles and my life here.
For me, it's about exploring my territory, knowing when to face fear and when to leave a situation. It's about being a curious soul, and learning to trust my intuition.
It's also not the sort of totem that's going to kick your ass.
Ever since I read, "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo," I've been thinking about my tattoos. My totems.
I can be a rather aggressive person. Loud. Passionate. Determined. I've even gotten "intimidating." And yet, my totems are a dragonfly and a rabbit.
It occurs to me that my totems represent my innermost heart and feelings. My soft insides. My dreams. My fears. My determination to survive and find my way.
But who would I be if my totem was a dragon? A lion? A snake? A bird of prey?
What predator can I call my own and what does that mean?
It's not simply a matter of picking. Dragonflies swarmed around me all at once. Rabbits kinda softly snuck up on me.
It is a give and take, though. I do believe that my next totem, if there is to be one, might involve my more aggressive side. Something about coming into my own. Something about strength and confidence. The fact that I'm thinking about it means I'm open to it.
But I'm not there yet. I've a ways to go with my rabbit totem, I think. And it's a good place to be.